Life in Print

The poetry of Asani Charles

  • Ichor and Paper

    Like ankle flesh torn from the burn of a rusty 

    bilboe

    I am born by blood and receipt.

    Like the stream of fermented bile, snot, and 

    urine

    I am born by blood and receipt.

    Like Kossola became Cudjoe and Ishtimonvbbi1 became

    Brown

    I am born by blood and receipt.

    Like rice water stains, hymen mucus, and 

    mass production

    I am born by blood and receipt.

    Like Reconstruction, Black Codes, and 

    Jim Crow

    I am born by blood and receipt.

    Like good hair and brown paper bag

    tests

    I am born by blood and receipt.

    Like axe for ask, des for desk, and tes for

    test

    I am born by blood and receipt.

    Like DNA results and unmatched speeding

    tickets

    I am born by blood and receipt.

    Like sista, comadre, cuzzin, and 

    mispronounced Asani-Yaphei

    I am born by blood and receipt,

    sanguine and fibrous yet only a few recognize, fewer acknowledge, and no one

    apologizes.

    White Winfreys interred in Tsalagi ground, 

    flagged with an oxidized family crested lichgate,

    and fifty miles away, their mulatto, Melungeon, mixed,

    part this and part that progeny sleep together in a

    pristine pasture on the side of a country road.

    Still, born by blood and receipt.

    © Asani Charles

    1. Chikasha, “He killed the one who came for him.” ↩︎
  • Wordsongs For Grandmas

    My first chapbook,

    Wordsongs For Grandmas, is here! Click the cover to order your copy. Thank you!

  • Bottom

    Fat-Fat’s on tha block/

    tryna cop/ cuz she swear she hot.

    But we know she not/

    in the lot/ steady drinkin’ pop/

    Boppin’ for red tops/

    tryna flex/

    cuz she think he bought/

    rings and dem tings but

    he stopped slangin’

    candy rock/

    Last one got him shock/

    with the shot cuz he

    pulled the chop./

    Now Fat-Fat gone

    be locked/

    in a box with

    a pissin’ pot.

    Bottom.

    ©️Asani Charles

  • Selfish Needs are Frivolous Wants

    My great grandmother was 23 years old when the stock market crashed in 1929. That year she was a live-in nanny and I asked her about her work when I learned about the crash in high school. I wanted to know if the textbooks were correct; that some people went crazy in mass hysteria, and if some even jumped out of windows in fear of being poor. She laughed and said, “I was poor the day before the market crashed, I was poor the day it crashed, and I was poor the day after the crash, but my family never went without a meal and I never went without a job.”

    Grammie told me that her boss, the lady of the house, told her that she was sorry to let her go, but that they could afford to pay her a little to wash their laundry. Suddenly my great grandmother saw an opportunity. She didn’t see this as the end of the world, but instead as a chance to go home to her three children, whom she only saw on the weekends, and survive, if not thrive. Grammie made sure to stop at every house on that street and pick up their laundry. She already had a flourishing garden, and although my family didn’t always have meat to eat, they had fresh fruit and vegetables. Grammie said not only did she make the same amount of money, some weeks she made more, and she showed her gratitude by leaving bundles of fresh produce atop clean loads of laundry.

    This story is significant because it taught me that history is rarely recorded from multiple perspectives and that I was raised to be self-sufficient. During this quarantine, when we wanted haircuts we cut our hair at home. When I wanted a manicure, I took my time and did my nails at home. What we did not, and will not do, is spike the curve by protesting social distancing’s limit to luxuries. What good are a fresh cut and a full set if the customer or service provider is too sick to enjoy the work or profit? When did cosmetic wants supersede the basic human needs of shelter, food, and health? Do people seriously care more about their roots showing than they do symptoms that can lay dormant in children for up to four weeks? According to newly opened beaches, restaurants, and protest placards, the answer is yes, and that is terribly sad.

    Four days into attempts to revisit normal, the mayor of Seoul, South Korea, shut down the city’s bars after dozens of new cases of COVID 19 sprang up, but we cannot expect such alacrity from our government because public health is not a national priority given the reaction of some states, who undoubtedly take their orders from the top down. This is a country where a governor threatens legal action against sovereign tribes’ right to protect themselves because she is concerned more about trade access to public roads. Did she not know that reservations have roads that lead somewhere or that tribes are sovereign governments? Or is this more about the optics and how small countries in her state are doing more for the good of all her people than she is?

    In order to make this uncomfortable situation work, we have to prioritize the things we swear we so desperately want versus what we actually need. No toilet paper roll ever saved anyone from this pandemic but yet we hoarded it like it was water, food, or better yet, a vaccine. No stylish hairdo looks as good as a properly filtered mask and short nails are in a word, sanitary. Please stop fighting online and in crowded streets about wants over needs. This behavior is silly, selfish, and ultimately dangerous.

  • “The Legend of The Might Could People” and other poems

    Three Poems for Virtual Cutting Edge Summit

    It is an honor to share my work at Dr. Candice Lucas-Bledsoe’s

    Virtual Cutting Edge Youth Summit. Thank you for having me.

  • #NoDAPL

    Wounded Knee 3.0 happens right now amidst our distraction. #NoDAPL isn’t only about Indigenous sacred sites and sovereignty, it is about clean water as a human right; water that flows from Indian land into your faucets. Stand with Standing Rock, #NoDapl. Photo by Brian Guilliaux. Stand with Standing Rock

    Join us at Dreamy Life Records and Music on Thursday, November 10th, to raise money to support the Standing Rock Water Protectors.

    We will be hosting 4 singer-songwriters and 2 spoken word performers, speaking out on these issues that have become so pressing.

    Beer will be available for those 21+ only and donations are strongly encouraged!

    **FREE ADMISSION – BUT OBVIOUSLY THE WHOLE POINT OF THIS EVENT IS TO RAISE MONEY, SO BRING CASH TO DONATE!!**

    6:30 – Carey Wolff
    7:15 – Luke McGlathery
    8:00 – Tammy Melody Gomez
    8:15 – Jacob Furr
    9:00 – Asani Winfrey-Charles
    9:15 – Vincent Neil Emerson
    nodapl

  • haiku

    Then: stressed at work, slip

    or fall to get paid leave. Now:

    some shoot black men dead.

  • Her name is Billie Jean

      Eleven years ago, right around mid morning, my maternal grandmother left this place while her pain ridden body lay motionless in her bed. That adage that time heals all wounds is false, at least for those of us with perfect elephant memories. I still hurt and I still miss her walloppy laugh and I still turn to dial a number I can never erase, 323-757-5508, she had it for 32 years and felt slightly perturbed about changing her area code, just to tell this monarch what madness my kids have done today, just to see if she’d like me to recreate them for her listening or viewing pleasure.
     I never thought it would hurt like this. I never realized the significance of who was there with us, my mom and me, as we served BB her last day in the home she bought in what used to be a “Good Neighborhood”, in almost Hawthorne. My dad’s mom arrived twenty minutes before goodbye, “just checking in on my friend,” she smiled as I sat Grandma Clark down with a cool drink to nurse the last of her memories before she lost them and her days a few years later. I’ll never forget coming out of Grandma’s chamber in tears only to be solaced by the little Indian lady whose eyes danced when she smiled.
       So forgive me for this essay of a status but surveys show that my kids are two thirds grown and my ornery, secretive and goofy best friend who taught me the ropes of fighting, saw only a portion of these three unthinkable people. Yes, I know she can see us all but it’s just not the same. I need the walloppy laugh when Daniel tells a joke, when Zach cruelly denies another kid’s shot, or when Karlie robs a batter’s hope by throwing her out at first. If you’re reading this BB, wallop a good one and make Heaven shake, rattle and roll. I love you❤️.
  • 151st Juneteenth

    It is fitting that the 151st ‪#‎Juneteenth‬ falls on ‪#‎FathersDay‬. What greater, braver, and more honorable sacrifice is there than being an enslaved parent, a father who toils and fights for the freedom of his children? This is the grave of my GGG Grandfather Corporal Jerry Holt, owned by his father and master Berryman Holt, enlisted in the Union Army at Lebanon, KY and was mustered into Company E, U.S. Colored Troops 125th Infantry Regiment on Apr 8, 1865. His name is engraved on the African American Civil War Memorial, plaque number D-130. When he returned home his father and former master gave him the land he toiled. Thank you father of my fathers. ‪#‎HappyFathersDay‬ #Juneteenth ‪#‎RussellKentucky‬ 151stJuneteenth

  • 2016 AP Reading Poetry Reading

    I am quite blessed and honored to serve as an AP Reader for College Board’s AP English Literature Exam now five summers in a row, and to celebrate our last reading in Louisville, Kentucky, I read two pieces from Love You Madly: Poetry about Jazz, edited by Lisa Alvarado. Here is one of the three pieces I wrote for Love You Madly Poetry, inspired by the legendary Hugh Masekela, who gave me a most perfect gift, my name.

    Mahlalela (Lazy Bones)

    There is no laziness in those bones.

    Music is the symbiotic marriage of math and science

    to passion and sound, birthing life, melody and drum

    but no work of art is that simple.

    Exile a man because he protests with a flugelhorn and prod him out at gun’s barrel,

    amidst an ebullition of homestead and singeing flesh, and thwart him westward,

    much like the fathers before him. He does not respond in kind,

    but riffs on his clarion, “Mahlalela,” lazy bones, as Letta rubs their noses in it.

    Rob a country of her griots and the callers will muster like Malcolm and MacDuff,

    amassing millions, nations even, firing lyric and melody, chanting “Amandla!,[1]

    while Makeba, Masekela, Mbulu and Semenya, turn the studio into the war room

    and dismantle the Boer bear from distant waters rallying, “Idlozi livukile! Masibuyel’ emakhaya![2]

    No lazy bones in this anthem and victory march song.

    Its cadence proud and contagious, its timbre too bright and confident,

    fully assured of the perfect, long suffering truth that neither life nor land

    has been lost in vain,

    and that freedom yet comes.
    © Asani Charles

    [1] Power

    [2] The spirits of our ancestors have awakened! Let’s return home!

     

  • A Paisley Tale

    Once upon a time in my girlhood, I changed my name to Paisley and wholeheartedly believed my Prince Charming would find me bearing roses and my raspberry beret. We’d marry and make melodies in a purple mansion and grow wise and beautiful as Mr. and Mrs. Nelson. That was a long time ago but still the tears run deep without ceasing. I will not say good night but instead, sleep well with your beloved.

    Prince Rogers Nelson June 7, 1958- April 21, 2016

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  • Sirius

    Watery waves above seared asphalt,

    I wonder how long we’re to bare this

    inferno, this burden. How did we get here?

     

    Summers of long ago were built for mindless

    laughter, and the splashing of dirty tiny feet.

    We ventured out at 8 am and surveyed the wild

    hills behind us, be they made of concrete or granite.

    Under the paramount of 80 degree palm trees

    We dined on the likes of Pop Rocks, Coke, pickles and

    America’s Best, Project Kool-Aid. Why did we leave?

     

    Roads warped and lawns parched, we huddle now

    in vacant spaces, too hot to touch, leemealone. The

    tile is cool and the AC struggles to hum, but for how long?

     

    One August I fell in love with Leonard. That was me,

    hair feathered and free, body stuffed in a flat tank top

    and daisy dukes. I only watered the grass every day at

    2 o’clock; the time he came home from hoopin’ at the park.

    He was enamored with my 12 year-old frame I’m certain.

     

    Four grandmas fell in thirty days due to century heat

    beating their ages. Budget cuts closed one city pool but

    dilapidated, who’d walk barefoot to its watering hole anyway?

     

    June ’91 sparked the summer of free beginnings.

    Boyz N the Hood made Crenshaw a tourist spot and

    we were okay with it; we were 20, dreams aplenty, and

    days of the week spawned one long water filled weekend.

    Newly on the verge of making count, we believed we

    were invincible. In a year we’d elect a sax-playing President.

     

    104° in Dallas and kids remain house hostages ransacking our nerves.

    Senators ransom both college funds and Grandmas’ prescriptions.

    My how we’ve changed over this 21st Century Summer.

     

    ©Asani Charles 8/1/2011

  • April’s Roundy

    March to November moves clockwise to the

    prairie songs of eight cowboy-hatted men.

    Dancers circle about in a kaleidoscope of hues,

    bells and sparkly rhinestones.  Among this

    concert of colors, one girl, wearing her grandma’s

    simple jingle dress, closes her eyes on honor beats,

    dancing church as the tin cones make medicine.

    She thinks no one sees her.

     

    Every Saturday he dons his father’s roach and single bustle,

    moving counter clockwise because that is tradition.

    He dances for grandpa who cannot. He never takes a

    number because the drum is not a lottery.

    His vest doesn’t glisten so he rarely catches the judges’ eye.

    Still a handful of young hopefuls watch his

    every step, coup and stop.

    He thinks no one sees him.

     

    When the round dance sings it way between

    contest and cake walk, they make their way,

    slide stepping with the head lady, slide stepping

    with the head man. Then like kismet, at the eclipse

    of the men and women’s lines, she notices his old-style

    bead work with the fat, chubby beads in muted colors.

    He marvels at her lone braid and scarlet scarf

    en lieu of a fan. He wonders what her family name is.

     

    © Asani Charles 4/2/13

  • Senescent

    Senescent

    In a silence only comfortable in secret places
    we listen to the oddest things and often confront
    surface masquerading truths. It happens seconds
    before slumber, where conscious and subconscious
    share glances fading in and out of a bar;
    one tipsy, the other drunk.

    An irregular thump-thumping sounds the alarm
    and like an annoying buzzer, we are forced to
    give biology an overdue audience. Still that’s
    not the surreal of it. No, it’s the
    rushing, sloshing, or worse, lollygagging
    just about dilatory flow of life through our veins.

    Hearing that stops us like a screen gone black,
    questioning all of the day’s decisions as we
    squeeze shut our eyes, fearing they’ll see the light.
    We call on our makers, supplicating forgiveness
    and new starts, but in case we fail- imagining
    how they’ll drape us and who will cry and

    who will mean it. We wonder if anything will ever get
    done in our absence, “will that chapbook ever
    see a bookstore shelf?” And then in a foggy moment,
    the serum of sleep seeps into the crevices and
    reality warps as a rabbit walks into the bar from the first stanza.
    We dream until the buzzer sounds then spring bolt

    from the midnight confessional into a hot shower (that doesn’t help),
    subsequently chasing caffeinated potions and hyper carbs,
    completely oblivious to the near-death oath sworn the night before.

    This is middle age.

    © Asani Charles 12/26/2014

  • When Consoling Sybrina and her Sisters

    Last month Tracy and Sybrina joined the congress of survivors
    and it’s not that boys are worth more than girls,
    no not at all. Without life givers we cease to exist.
    It’s more that testosterone drives us, seeks out
    all we wish to discover, adventure, and conquer.

    When mothers yield boys fathers rejoice in
    the preservation of their names, their likeness,
    their vigor and fame but mothers take a beat back,
    pondering, “How will we raise him? Protect without
    enveloping him, shelter without sheltering him?”

    So mothers sleep a little lighter, pray a little longer,
    toiling until tired just to ensure that this root survives
    strangling weeds and sometimes fetid soil pushing through
    to wrangle himself into a strong veiny oak or maybe celestial redwood.
    Then imagine her squalls when someone cuts the young plant down.

    Contrary to popular belief, it doesn’t always happen amidst a crowd,
    with bare knees bloodied on war torn street corners, stained in beer and piss,
    quarantined off with yellow hazard tape. No-
    Sometimes it comes six months later, hovering over the shopping cart,
    as she reaches for his favorite box of sugar high cereal.

    The wail comes from the uterus and draws its volume from the diaphragm.
    Her back contorts, arching up and concave to support the siren’s power and
    alleviate the heart’s waning blood supply and the lungs’ lack of oxygen. The lyrics
    are foreign to human ears, communicating solely with sinew, cells, gods and angels.
    What comforts a wound so fresh, bleeding out as the spindly plant withers in her arms?

    No such elixir exists because no potion soothes a stolen womb. Offer prayers and carry her burdens while she marks endless mornings without hearing “mommy.” Make no sense of the senseless, only memories of love and kindness mending what’s left of her heart.

    Copyright Asani Charles 3/24/2012